A Light in the Darkness

Every year for as long as I can remember, I have started to sink into a depression sometime during October and stayed that way until April. It took many years before I came to realize that my worst depression every year coincided with the end of daylight savings time and subsided around the return to standard. Add that I live in an area where winters tend towards clouds and rain and it only makes my seasonal blues even more difficult to endure. That isn't to say that I don't appreciate the green and the growth that the rain brings, I just appreciate it less during the dark months of winter.

As I have struggled over the last few months with depression and discouragement, I have found that actively looking for light makes a difference. When I am driving around town, I notice the light in the clouds. I pay attention to sun breaks and try to enjoy them when I can. We have switched to L.E.D. bulbs with a more natural light and installed them in our living room and kitchen. One thing that I have noticed is that I find light more beautiful when it is contrasted by shadow, clouds, or darkness. It has made me appreciate my challenges more. Once I started really paying attention and looking for light, I started to see it everywhere. I stop to catch quick photos of beautiful light when I can, because I want to remember those moments. Sometimes it can be dark and rainy here for days on end, and I need the reminder that the light is going to come back.

Another way I find light is to look for it in others. It may not be physical light, but it often works even better for chasing away the blues. I can see light in a friendly smile, a kind deed, laughter, service and in so many other ways. I'm so thankful for family, friends and others who shine a little light into my life, and who set a positive example for me. In moments that I am not finding any light in others, I am learning to try to make it myself. I can give of myself. I can be kind. I can show compassion. I can be forgiving. I can choose how I respond to people and do it in a more positive way. I can be a light in the darkness.

So give it a try. Even if you don't suffer from seasonal blues. Even if you feel happy all the time. Look for light, and be the light. The world can always use more.