What motivates you? This morning I was motivated to get out of bed because my three year old was digging his feet into the small of my back. He somehow manages to come downstairs in the early morning hours and crawls into bed with us. For some reason he is most comfortable sleeping at an angle across the mattress, and as soon as D gets up for work, #5 takes over that side of the bed and turns himself sideways so as to better torture me.
Motivation is an interesting thing. Some people are motivated purely by their own desire for something better, or to achieve something. Social pressures, competition, someone else's opinions can all be motivators to people.
Lately I have been decidedly unmotivated. It has been a struggle to get things done. I think that a lack of motivation has often been something I have had to contend with in my life. If things get overwhelming I just shut down. Desperation has often been the catalyst for motivation to kick in.
I am a known procrastinator. I always felt like I worked best under pressure in high school when trying to complete my assignments at the last minute. Now I find that I don't necessarily have due dates for my assignments. It is even easier for me to put things off until they get too overwhelming for me to contemplate. I am suddenly looking for motivation.
Of course there are people I want to please or impress. I have a family that I want to take care of and I have religious convictions. Sometimes all of these things are not enough to motivate me. I am not travelling down a bad road, but I am not travelling at all. Not moving is certainly not going to get me anywhere.
I think that perhaps my lack of motivation is directly related to my own self esteem. If I fail at things, then people will certainly be more likely to see me the way I see myself most times. Apparently other people's opinions matter to me because at the last minute I tend to pull a rabbit out of my battered top hat, and make it through whatever it was I was supposed to be working on. Still in everyday things I often fail. Most of those failures are kept between me, myself and I.
I think I need to do some things for me. I don't mean being selfish and going out on a big shopping spree or anything like that. What I mean is that I need to realize that not only do my husband and children deserve a clean house, but so do I. I deserve a place that is not so chaotic, where I can relax and enjoy life. I deserve to get things done in a timely manner so that I don't have to endure the stress that comes from putting it off. Not only do my husband and children deserve a wife and Mom who is in better shape, but I deserve to feel healthy and able to keep up with the physical demands of having five kids. My motivations need to change because as many thoughts towards change as I have had, they have not been enough to actually move me in any direction that I need to go.
So will doing it for me be enough to really motivate me? I honestly don't know. Maybe if I combine my motivations I will actually get up and move down the path I want to be on.
What motivates you? What gets you out of bed in the morning? How much are you worth in your own effort?
Motivation is an interesting thing. Some people are motivated purely by their own desire for something better, or to achieve something. Social pressures, competition, someone else's opinions can all be motivators to people.
Lately I have been decidedly unmotivated. It has been a struggle to get things done. I think that a lack of motivation has often been something I have had to contend with in my life. If things get overwhelming I just shut down. Desperation has often been the catalyst for motivation to kick in.
I am a known procrastinator. I always felt like I worked best under pressure in high school when trying to complete my assignments at the last minute. Now I find that I don't necessarily have due dates for my assignments. It is even easier for me to put things off until they get too overwhelming for me to contemplate. I am suddenly looking for motivation.
Of course there are people I want to please or impress. I have a family that I want to take care of and I have religious convictions. Sometimes all of these things are not enough to motivate me. I am not travelling down a bad road, but I am not travelling at all. Not moving is certainly not going to get me anywhere.
I think that perhaps my lack of motivation is directly related to my own self esteem. If I fail at things, then people will certainly be more likely to see me the way I see myself most times. Apparently other people's opinions matter to me because at the last minute I tend to pull a rabbit out of my battered top hat, and make it through whatever it was I was supposed to be working on. Still in everyday things I often fail. Most of those failures are kept between me, myself and I.
I think I need to do some things for me. I don't mean being selfish and going out on a big shopping spree or anything like that. What I mean is that I need to realize that not only do my husband and children deserve a clean house, but so do I. I deserve a place that is not so chaotic, where I can relax and enjoy life. I deserve to get things done in a timely manner so that I don't have to endure the stress that comes from putting it off. Not only do my husband and children deserve a wife and Mom who is in better shape, but I deserve to feel healthy and able to keep up with the physical demands of having five kids. My motivations need to change because as many thoughts towards change as I have had, they have not been enough to actually move me in any direction that I need to go.
So will doing it for me be enough to really motivate me? I honestly don't know. Maybe if I combine my motivations I will actually get up and move down the path I want to be on.
What motivates you? What gets you out of bed in the morning? How much are you worth in your own effort?
3 comments:
Ditto every word of your post. Except for the little feet digging into my back. My little one prefers to jab me in the stomach or nose with sharp elbows.
I am my own worst enemy. If I didn't have to get outta bed, I don't know that I would.
I just got a brand new alarm clock that gets me out of bed on time, at least most mornings. His name is Garrett. Unfortunately, his snooze button sometimes goes a little too long.
The other reason I get out of bed is I've got a date. My neightbor and I go running in the mornings at 5:45. Well, it's more like a REALLY slow jog (think: I can walk faster than I'm running right now), but it gets me out the door and moving, knowing that someone else has to get up at an absurd hour and it's my fault.
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